Greetings from India

Hello hello. Zomg okay this is too much it's been almost a whole year since I wrote an entry HAHAHAHA. A friend recently inspired me to blog again by telling me that he has started a blog and another reminded me of how much I love to write, which is the core reason as to why Cavina Ally Lim's blog existed HEHE. Thank you guys you guys are really awesome people who made me realised how important it is to continue living on my dream lol. I hope I can keep the spirit and hype up /twinkle eyes I won't let you down lol.

Anyways just a short entry because it is late already and tomorrow (today Malaysian time) is a long day. We're going to Amritsar in Punjab in eight hours Indian time to visit the Sri Harmandir Sahib, also known as the Golden Temple. In case you haven't already know, I'm currently in Haryana, India baby! Will be staying here for 10 weeks /monkeydance. Excited because never once in my life would I have thought that I would visit India. Plus, I've just celebrated my 23rd birthday in a full blast Indian tradition too. Will upload pictures in another entry okthxbai.

Meanwhile, here's some appetizer picture of us girls on an Indian rickshaw in New Delhi. Super duper fun experience, I must say :D

I love this picture! Me on the left with Kamles and Fangjie & Jye Ying behind us :D

Nuahs!

viva la espana!

all this hype over the FIFA World Cup 2010 and all those talks about who's gonna be the new champion and the funny sounds the vuvuzuelas make and how Jabulani is crazy to side the underdogs and all those musings and writings and blogs about the world cup makes me feel like there is nada difference for me to write nor talk about it. even an octopus made the news by amusing everyone through its ability to accurately predict over and over again in matches it was asked to predict lol.

i never felt the need to talk or write about the world cup and the team i am rooting for and its glory in reaching the finals for the first time ever. even as a fan, i only rejoice in a little celebration when my fav team wins but only God knows how fast my heart is beating or how psyched and excited i am inside. sure, there is aplenty of joy and excitement as i talked about it with family and friends over meals and a cuppa or even in the laboratory when we're in a poor sleepy state of mind and the best part of it all is to be able to jubilate in exhilaration or dramatise our cries of desperation over a team's blunder (england, haha!) during a match. but i never felt the need to express myself like a madwoman when it comes to talking about my fav team. in short, i don't think i can be crazy over anything as long as i kept it in a speed of heartbeat in my heart lol.

i kept my silence on the world cup thus far and when i meant silence i only meant it in writing maybe because i felt that talking about it might jinx spain's chance in winning the trophy wtf. but i'd really love to show my support in writing just for once, just before this once-in-every-four-years event come to an end, just before the new semester starts and i won't have any chance to write profusely (not that i ever did!) like this anymore due to an expected crazy overmouting workload and time constraint, just before my final year project kickstart into its serious no-joke phase.

sometimes i wonder if i am a true fan of football because if there was a competition on who can talk the most on it, i would definitely lose like mad. and don't get me started on spain. good looking lads, charms, and beautiful football aha. but that's another story for another time.

found this extremely sweet looking picture of david villa and his daughter.

awwww such a cutie! adds up to all the hawtness and machoness /swoons <3

and wayne rooney was voted ugliest player at the World Cup HAHAHAHAHAHA ok i am so bad to laugh at him but he didn't perform at all lor for this World Cup and i don't get all the hype over him. seriously the most overrated player TSKK.

gud naits with love still in hyper mood cos finally get to bervideocall with mummy and daddy! :)) /missing home missing mummy's cooking period.

joyous june that was

a pleasant month it has been and i truly cannot find the right adjective to describe and express it. i have had a few awesomely pleasant surprises to send me in awe for a whole lifetime. sometimes i feel like i have so much to thank for!

i'd really like to write about the whole amazing street-fooding and sight-seeing adventure we had lately but it suddenly occurred to me that that effort may seem a little bit too ambitious at this moment. it's 3:56 am i'm sleeeepy LOL. and i seemed to be suffering from the writer's block syndrome lately. i can't seem to write properly anymoreeee these days! well that just means i have to write even more. read books with proper english. british english. wahah i like.

having writer's block and my downfall in being able to sum up a great experience in a whole word (not that i have been able to, mind you :p), it seems so much easier to post up pictures here. but there's over 500 pictures! and each and every one of them tells a different story. i can't just choose which one to post. it's not as easy, right. pictures like a great adventure we had are treasures.

i still can't figure out how we ended up with over 500 pictures for just a five-day adventure. summore i deleted so many already -__-

anyhoo, i shall do two for now. too lazy and too tired. whee!

with the surprise visitor from Borneo, johnny bok, and jonathan. haha. waiting for the cable at kek lok si temple to bring us high up! xx pohleen's behind camera lens :)

daniel, me, and dan dan at Tropical Spice Garden! we were hanging from a ahems, cliff? :p this pic kind of blur but still one of my favs nevertheless! xx

it's inevitably difficult to sum up our five-day adventure in Penang with so many awesome fanatico friends in two pictures. not forgetting all the birthday surprises, trips here and there, the amazing family gatherings and bonding time, and then there's the amazing world cup experience! sad, honeymoon period's gonna be over soon with final year project coming up but still looking forward to going back to beautiful Sabah nevertheless. because beyond all that, another amazing adventure awaits! HAHA <3

i still can't believe

i missed my flight home to penang yesterday T____T

and my whole mas ticket from kk to penang via kl got burned.

this has never happened to me! who says first times are always the best wtf.

i must be jinx with malaysian airlines or something cause the last time i flew with mas, we had to standby for almost four hours T___________T

if i ever do take mas again, i'll make sure i'll arrive at the airport like, five hours earlier before check-in time.

in my defense, i don't think the mas staff was being gracious at all. we were only a few minutes late before the check-in counter closes. is this what you call MH Malaysian Hospitality? and i'm a malaysian wtf.

okay enough swearing.

on a brighter note, i get to spend some time in kuching instead!

i'm just really bummed out cause well, i was really looking forward to spending time at home with ze mummy and ze daddy and ze babie. but it's okay now i get to see them in two days!

since i didn't have a chance to do a mother's day post so here's a belated one:

this was back when i still had curly murly hair! <3

to my dearest mummy, happy belated mummys day! you're ze bestest best mummy in the WWW (whole wide world). i love you so much and i miss you and i can't wait to be home to see you again. wishing you all the good things in the world, good health, happyness, joy, and love, every day, every second. *hugss & kisses!

with love,

ze baby girl <3

new things

i've been struggling with so many things for the past few days, even up till last night. not that all are bad, they just seemed to raise more questions every time i think about them. the rows we had, the inevitable questions, the arguments. it's so difficult. but good times were really, really good.

i know a huge part of it was my fault. nothing, i guess, was ever enough for me even though he did so much already and always wanting and working to work things out. and who is anyone to decide that he or she is right or wrong anyways? i guess i wasn't being fair at all. i inevitably became someone i didn't want to be. i should always stick to being myself. but sometimes, i am so confused. i don't really know who i should be anymore.

but things are progressing really well now. i decided to go back to my old self and that ultimately came with maturity and lots and lots of understanding and compromise. sometimes, it's not easy. certain things just haunts me, but i know i am not alone and that we're in this together. this, i was made to understand last night and i was so glad. it's like a huge closure. and everything was so sweet again.

i don't know what is right or what is wrong. all this time i never knew i potrayed an image of having a person to meet requirements just so he could love me. i realised that's so wrong and despite all this, he still tried and tried so hard, just to make me happy. all this while i thought that everything was right just because i thought that all of that was right. and i fussed over the tiniest littlest things only god knows what came over me. and i am so sorry i hurt him so much in the process and made him feel underappreciated.

i have fears too. like doubts that will this work, will things get better, or worse. but i think i should stop being selfish and try to compromise. however, i do hope this person respect my views just as i respect his when it comes to certain things.

all these things shouldn't have even happened had i been myself. i should be the most secure girl on earth! all the things he did, priceless! (though i wish he could do more, okay shut up cavina).

anyways! the point is:

one, i really need to start appreciating the littlest tiniest things in life. not that i never but you'll know what i am talking about if you're me.

two, i really, seriously, cannot wear my emotions up my sleeve and get upset or unhappy about the tiniest things that displeases me that often. it's really not healthy.

and tres, i cannot allow myself to swivel down the drain everything something bad happens which isn't really bad at all but i made it sound like the hugest deal in the world.

there's alot that i need to change, but besos besos we'll handle things one step at a time.

xoxo,

feliz chino nueve every buddy!

time of my life

i just realised that we're gonna get to celebrate loy kratong in bangkok. issisnt it niceee?

i've always wanted to watch the loy kratong. now i even get to experience it ;DDD

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one another note, here's one of my favourite pictures of us ;)

these two are one of the reasons for the time of my life in uni. <3>

i'm on furthest right if you haven't already know ;ppp

more pics next time!

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so i went shopping today.

i shop but judy dropped. ha ha! this girl is so funny.

everywhere i went in the mall today, i hear black eye peas' songs. it's like the whole mall is on b.e.p. record. only two of their songs were played though. "heartbreaker" and "boom boom pow!" but coolio. i love them, so no complains. ;D

which reminds me of fergie. heard her husband josh duhamel woke a stripper up in the middle of the night to have sex? omgosh, if that's true, i'm utterly dissapointed at him. thought he's one of those loyal hollywood celebrity husbands.

anyways, if that's true, he's on my weirdo list.

oh man, i'm supposed to be researching on thailand, and important stuff like non-intervention policies and times of war. look what i made myself do??? ;p

<3

feliz cumpleanos mi hermana!

tomorrow is caryn lim myn li's birthday =DDD

caryn happens to be my baby sister. and she is turning twelve tomorrow. sigh. how fast time flies.

i could still vividly remember back to the time she was just a baby. back to the time when she was just brought out into this world. nine years gap, you ask? yep, our gap was that big. so obviously we have very different tastes. but i know i somehow influenced her one way or another. in a good siblings influences kind of way lar, ahems. she grew up faster than i thought she should. her favourite music was from linkin park. who wasn't if you were born in 1988 and the in music was by LP and have a little sister to pour influence upon? well, i did, indirectly, that is. i don't even want to go into the fashion part. i think i robbed her of her childhood. haha kidding kidding. i didn't have internet connection growing up till i was, eleven? during her time, everything my time was becoming obsolete and so yeah, you get the point. i guess i was a huge role model for her, despite her refusal to admit it EVERYTIME =p

to my baby sister who likes to be called 'baby' or 'sayang' but denies it ALL THE TIME, whom people must hug instead of her doing the hugging, who reeefuuseesss to kiss her mom, dad, and SISTER (hah! *roll eyes*),

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!

YOU'RE TURNING 12!

I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!

i always thought about what was going to happen or how is it going to feel like when she was just born when i was only 9, and then thought about what going to happen to her, how is she going to be like by the time i'm 18 when i was 9, and now that i'm 21, i do know how it is like. i'm very proud of my sister, she collects more trophies in her entire 12 years of life than me in my 21 years of life!!!

wishing you good health and all the best this birthday, in upsr (sap sap sui only), in boys (kidding kidding, must start protecting you ady), SMILE ALWAYS (you look pretty when you do!), don't always muka masam okay next time you grow up looking like that baru tau (kidding KIDDING!), and i love you baby.

despite our hugeee gap, know that we didn't spend enough time with each other as we should, but know that you are always in my heart,like how torres is always in my heart oukayyy i should probably stop joking around HAHA. it's a pity i can't be back to celebrate with you this birthday, but nah, i made this post specially for YOU!!! see, i always think of you one =p

take care sis, you better brag to people about this! HAHA.

MUAXXX!!!

missing you always ;D

teehee

i'm back from my tour.

for those who didn't know i spent my raya break in ranau and kundasang with 15 of my uni mates right after i came back from labuan and the trip was so nice i have no other words to describe it except for this:

ranau and kundasang is FABULOUS!!!

they're just AWESOME!!!

they're sugar, spice, and everything nice!!!

i think i'm going to buy a piece of land and build my house there.

no, make that two lands =DDD

updates on this in the future. wahahah. with a whole load bunch of pictures!!!

we took soo manyyy!

p/s: ranau is in kundasang or vice versa. i know i know! like, i don't even know the geography of the place i'm travelling in right? actually i do know! i just get so confused. i'm *whaddyacall* mesmerised by the place already. hehe. really one.

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selamat hari raya to those who are celebrating!!!

i'm only three days late*coughscoughs*you guys have a month to raya so its okay right?right.

;)

maaf zahir dan batin semua.

xoxo.

happy mid-autumm fest!

fine. i know that came a little late. hey-just a day late ok ;p

the actual day was yesterday people-for those who didn't know.

been really really really busy with loads of stuff lately. oh well. actually ever since i came here everything's been really hectic. in a good way actually.

(read busy:with mid-terms and assignments and reports and fieldtrips and debate trainings and batik and uni events and omygudness-idunno-what-else and *coughsHOLIDAYS!!!coughs* and mid-terms and assignments and reports and fieldtrips and debate trainings and batik and omygudness-idunno-wat else).

haven't really got the chance to be checking nor updating anything at all.

anyways!

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL Y'ALL!!!!!!!

i purposely use red one.

:D

play your lanterns and eat your mooncakes wisely okay lol. i did. with a blast :)))

pictures will be up soooonn~i hope *crossfingersthati'llhavetime*

xoxo.