Greetings from India

Hello hello. Zomg okay this is too much it's been almost a whole year since I wrote an entry HAHAHAHA. A friend recently inspired me to blog again by telling me that he has started a blog and another reminded me of how much I love to write, which is the core reason as to why Cavina Ally Lim's blog existed HEHE. Thank you guys you guys are really awesome people who made me realised how important it is to continue living on my dream lol. I hope I can keep the spirit and hype up /twinkle eyes I won't let you down lol.

Anyways just a short entry because it is late already and tomorrow (today Malaysian time) is a long day. We're going to Amritsar in Punjab in eight hours Indian time to visit the Sri Harmandir Sahib, also known as the Golden Temple. In case you haven't already know, I'm currently in Haryana, India baby! Will be staying here for 10 weeks /monkeydance. Excited because never once in my life would I have thought that I would visit India. Plus, I've just celebrated my 23rd birthday in a full blast Indian tradition too. Will upload pictures in another entry okthxbai.

Meanwhile, here's some appetizer picture of us girls on an Indian rickshaw in New Delhi. Super duper fun experience, I must say :D

I love this picture! Me on the left with Kamles and Fangjie & Jye Ying behind us :D

Nuahs!

viva la espana!

all this hype over the FIFA World Cup 2010 and all those talks about who's gonna be the new champion and the funny sounds the vuvuzuelas make and how Jabulani is crazy to side the underdogs and all those musings and writings and blogs about the world cup makes me feel like there is nada difference for me to write nor talk about it. even an octopus made the news by amusing everyone through its ability to accurately predict over and over again in matches it was asked to predict lol.

i never felt the need to talk or write about the world cup and the team i am rooting for and its glory in reaching the finals for the first time ever. even as a fan, i only rejoice in a little celebration when my fav team wins but only God knows how fast my heart is beating or how psyched and excited i am inside. sure, there is aplenty of joy and excitement as i talked about it with family and friends over meals and a cuppa or even in the laboratory when we're in a poor sleepy state of mind and the best part of it all is to be able to jubilate in exhilaration or dramatise our cries of desperation over a team's blunder (england, haha!) during a match. but i never felt the need to express myself like a madwoman when it comes to talking about my fav team. in short, i don't think i can be crazy over anything as long as i kept it in a speed of heartbeat in my heart lol.

i kept my silence on the world cup thus far and when i meant silence i only meant it in writing maybe because i felt that talking about it might jinx spain's chance in winning the trophy wtf. but i'd really love to show my support in writing just for once, just before this once-in-every-four-years event come to an end, just before the new semester starts and i won't have any chance to write profusely (not that i ever did!) like this anymore due to an expected crazy overmouting workload and time constraint, just before my final year project kickstart into its serious no-joke phase.

sometimes i wonder if i am a true fan of football because if there was a competition on who can talk the most on it, i would definitely lose like mad. and don't get me started on spain. good looking lads, charms, and beautiful football aha. but that's another story for another time.

found this extremely sweet looking picture of david villa and his daughter.

awwww such a cutie! adds up to all the hawtness and machoness /swoons <3

and wayne rooney was voted ugliest player at the World Cup HAHAHAHAHAHA ok i am so bad to laugh at him but he didn't perform at all lor for this World Cup and i don't get all the hype over him. seriously the most overrated player TSKK.

gud naits with love still in hyper mood cos finally get to bervideocall with mummy and daddy! :)) /missing home missing mummy's cooking period.

joyous june that was

a pleasant month it has been and i truly cannot find the right adjective to describe and express it. i have had a few awesomely pleasant surprises to send me in awe for a whole lifetime. sometimes i feel like i have so much to thank for!

i'd really like to write about the whole amazing street-fooding and sight-seeing adventure we had lately but it suddenly occurred to me that that effort may seem a little bit too ambitious at this moment. it's 3:56 am i'm sleeeepy LOL. and i seemed to be suffering from the writer's block syndrome lately. i can't seem to write properly anymoreeee these days! well that just means i have to write even more. read books with proper english. british english. wahah i like.

having writer's block and my downfall in being able to sum up a great experience in a whole word (not that i have been able to, mind you :p), it seems so much easier to post up pictures here. but there's over 500 pictures! and each and every one of them tells a different story. i can't just choose which one to post. it's not as easy, right. pictures like a great adventure we had are treasures.

i still can't figure out how we ended up with over 500 pictures for just a five-day adventure. summore i deleted so many already -__-

anyhoo, i shall do two for now. too lazy and too tired. whee!

with the surprise visitor from Borneo, johnny bok, and jonathan. haha. waiting for the cable at kek lok si temple to bring us high up! xx pohleen's behind camera lens :)

daniel, me, and dan dan at Tropical Spice Garden! we were hanging from a ahems, cliff? :p this pic kind of blur but still one of my favs nevertheless! xx

it's inevitably difficult to sum up our five-day adventure in Penang with so many awesome fanatico friends in two pictures. not forgetting all the birthday surprises, trips here and there, the amazing family gatherings and bonding time, and then there's the amazing world cup experience! sad, honeymoon period's gonna be over soon with final year project coming up but still looking forward to going back to beautiful Sabah nevertheless. because beyond all that, another amazing adventure awaits! HAHA <3

comfort zone

hello there world. i have so much to tell you lately. but it's getting late and i am suppose to be working on my thesis. so laters, hahaha. i always do that, don't i? well, the joys of being a human. being able to escape from the realities of the world.

facing a bit of a dilemma of late. a good buddy told me its about time i get out from my comfort zone and approach people about it. it's definitely difficult, but it's the best and righteous thing to do. the importance of going all out for someone and not expecting anything in return is the right thing to do, he says. well said, i couldn't agree more. aah i am so being vague i just lost my chain of thoughts wtf.

sigh. growing up is a difficult thing to do. no, wait. growing up is easy. you just..grow. to face stuff as you grow up is difficult. i don't think i like being an adult when it comes to these things.

this is where i need to be in touch with my inner spirituality. apart from my family at home, i am truly blessed to have these few people away from home that are always there for me
spiritualy.

me and shan shan!

me and brendan dong dong

want to post more pics of the other cool people in my lives who have always helped me through spiritually and emotionally but heh it's getting late and i'm lazy. but you know who you are loves!
i heart all of you <3

xoxo

psyched

wow i must be the most hardworking person to blog at 3:44 am lol.

i think i'm staying up just so i don't miss my flight again T________T

this is not nais at all even though i know that there's gonna be about six people who are going to give me morning calls in approximately 14 minutes.

hrmm. this is not good they'll probably scream at me if they found out i hadn't slept at all T____T

but it's okay because this is all for a good cause even if i end up with big bulging eyebags later i can always sleep in the plane wtf.

well i hope i can sleep in the plane and not stay up in excitement LOL.

to be honest, i'm staying up to listen to justin's bieber's one time cause it's just so nais! i don't know what's all the fuss about people liking him too much and people totally hating him. so extreme one! you can either like his songs or like him choose one don't hate both! i only like one song from him anyways see how fair a person i am LOL.

anyways this is how i look like when i listen to one time.

see, itz with ze love, <3

i still can't believe

i missed my flight home to penang yesterday T____T

and my whole mas ticket from kk to penang via kl got burned.

this has never happened to me! who says first times are always the best wtf.

i must be jinx with malaysian airlines or something cause the last time i flew with mas, we had to standby for almost four hours T___________T

if i ever do take mas again, i'll make sure i'll arrive at the airport like, five hours earlier before check-in time.

in my defense, i don't think the mas staff was being gracious at all. we were only a few minutes late before the check-in counter closes. is this what you call MH Malaysian Hospitality? and i'm a malaysian wtf.

okay enough swearing.

on a brighter note, i get to spend some time in kuching instead!

i'm just really bummed out cause well, i was really looking forward to spending time at home with ze mummy and ze daddy and ze babie. but it's okay now i get to see them in two days!

since i didn't have a chance to do a mother's day post so here's a belated one:

this was back when i still had curly murly hair! <3

to my dearest mummy, happy belated mummys day! you're ze bestest best mummy in the WWW (whole wide world). i love you so much and i miss you and i can't wait to be home to see you again. wishing you all the good things in the world, good health, happyness, joy, and love, every day, every second. *hugss & kisses!

with love,

ze baby girl <3

el pelo largo y castano

i really feel like cutting my hair but i can only do that after the

15th day of chinese new year t.t

i feel like cutting it short-er ;p was suppose to do it when i got back from kk but i'm just too busy! //lalala shouldn't be an excuse but I"M SERIOUS!!!

well they say my hair is fine nice already lah noneed to cut but the weather is pushing me to spot a new hairdo. heh another excuse blame the weather plaks =p

now that i really think about it, i wanna go back to having a fringe. it should be more manageable.

hmm, i'm considering cutting my own hair. in kk. maybe, just maybe //giggles

i'm suppose to write a more meaningful and deeper post than this but i got carried away lol wtf. i'm itching to write an emo post actually. a good emo one. let's see how the night goes loves!

the week that was

a week into the new semester and this was what i'd realised:

one, my spanish is so darn rusty.

two, my chemistry - ohmygosh i really need to study them all back again.

three, i'm so glad i'm in debate cos it just makes studying environmental law so much easier, and;

four, it's really not at all that easy to quit debate. like he said "debate is a large chunk of our uni life and to not have you there is hard" AWWWW. so sweet. but that's not the point lalala. i think debating has actually shaped me into who i am today in the most positive chi ying and yang energy way ever. serious! ;D

had an awesome weekend ;) we catched the sherlock holmes movie and round and round the mall to search for this eating place. and yesterday, everything just fell into place ;)))

kk is so hot these days. i get tired all the time, like so easily. i'm just taking whatevernots oppurtunity i have to sleep before tomorrow starts. that's the new week where all the workload starts to pile in.

on another note, i really miss a good read. a friend reminded me of the books i used to read last night. right now, the time traveler's wife is something i would love to dig in.

also, i got to know as the vanilla and strawberry flavoured girl HAHA. weird line to end a post with but oh well, tooodles and be good XOXO ;)

cav on a 'lil wupid '09 and a few last holiday drops

with only about five days left in penang, i'm contemplating on how i should wisely spend my last days of holidays best before the new semester starts. thing is, i have practically done almost everything and everything that i wanted to do. i've travelled, catch up with some old pals, eat (that will never be enough for me!), sleep (ditto!), and um, read? like the economics and stuff? heh, nah. i kinda made an *coughscoughs* informal announcement that i might be ending my debating career after the last round at GEMS WUPID last week. that's world universities peace invitational debate. very cool tournament, the last of 2009 for me. another tournament where i get to debate on a world class debating arena and meet lots and lots of ang-moh. hehe.

they say it will never happen. either i'll get suck back right in or they suck me in into debating again. hah, we'll see.

aaaanyways, so after much contemplation, i'd knew what i really wanted to do. i really really wanted to stay in and catch up with the family and watch lots lots of movies and plan where to eat out five times a day. i've rarely been home these days and yeah, i really miss this. so before i fly again, i'd really like to hoo-za with my hommies. must spend this last few holi-days wisely. next sem is going to be crazy as usual. i'm anticipating more assignments and those lab works and oh yeah, fieldtrips? grr.

here's some of the latest pictures during WUPID. i cut my hair yesterday, so i can't do the curling-my-hair-with-my-fingers thing anymore t.t but i lovin' my new long bob!

here's shu fen and i. she's my junior slash team mate for wupid '09. i love the dress i was in!

everyone look so proper in this pic! ;p here's us with LP from mahidol university, bangkok. he's this really cool monk debater. plus he remembers me from smu hammers singapore! he has officially become my favourite monk ;)))

more pics will be up on facebook soon! it's so much more convenient ;p

signing off now, xoxo

bangkok experience: part I

hellow every buddy!

i'm back from bangkok =D

was there for the first inaugural asian bp debate in chulalongkorn university =D

bangkok's so awesome i wana go back there again.

funny thing, we didn't get to taste tomyam. we couldn't seem to find it! ish peliknye. thought it would be all over the streets or something since they're famous for that.

getting real tired so this will be a quick update. and here's one picture of me and sheren in suvarnabumi airport in bangkok.

more pictures next time! just in case you wanna see more pictures, part I of our bangkok adventure is already out in my facebook ;)))

we had a great time in bangkok and everything was awesome for me though the food was not as i expected them to be. the debating experience that i had would be something that i would treasure for the rest of my life *emo

alright more updates soon! good night xoxo.

time of my life

i just realised that we're gonna get to celebrate loy kratong in bangkok. issisnt it niceee?

i've always wanted to watch the loy kratong. now i even get to experience it ;DDD

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one another note, here's one of my favourite pictures of us ;)

these two are one of the reasons for the time of my life in uni. <3>

i'm on furthest right if you haven't already know ;ppp

more pics next time!

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so i went shopping today.

i shop but judy dropped. ha ha! this girl is so funny.

everywhere i went in the mall today, i hear black eye peas' songs. it's like the whole mall is on b.e.p. record. only two of their songs were played though. "heartbreaker" and "boom boom pow!" but coolio. i love them, so no complains. ;D

which reminds me of fergie. heard her husband josh duhamel woke a stripper up in the middle of the night to have sex? omgosh, if that's true, i'm utterly dissapointed at him. thought he's one of those loyal hollywood celebrity husbands.

anyways, if that's true, he's on my weirdo list.

oh man, i'm supposed to be researching on thailand, and important stuff like non-intervention policies and times of war. look what i made myself do??? ;p

<3

chula here i come

now that exams are finally over, i feel...weird. like my daily routine has been disrupted because before this, my life revolved around assignments, quizzes, exams, and the like. it's a nice feeling, nevertheless, knowing that i've already put in my best, day and night.

now everything seemed kinda light. like i can watch drama at ease, talked to my room mates with ease, and last night, i felt so excited just by talking to mom. just because i knew that i don't have a whole piling workload waiting for me when i put down the phone nor do i need to crammed my head with formulas and facts.

though now it's time to study once again. on world issues. politics, nuclear, war, humanity, socials. ahems.

will be off to bangkok for the inaugural asian british parliamentary debate in two days. though i'm excited, it's nervewrecking knowing that now the university wants some results. tnc just analogized us to world cup. "we're footballers of the world and we will win this!!!" wow what an interesting guy. yep. we just debated in front of him just now. heh.

one word: A.W.E.S.O.M.E.

well of course i want results as well. it just ain't easy. it's not football right. how often does someone's point get across the room? exactly my point.

anyways, this will be my second international tourney. asian bp will be organized by chulalongkorn university, bangkok. its quite prestigious seeing as we have people like tj as ca and tate, logan, and sharm as dca. must be careful not to embarass ums now =/

so, economist, here i comee.

xoxo.

feliz cumpleanos mi hermana!

tomorrow is caryn lim myn li's birthday =DDD

caryn happens to be my baby sister. and she is turning twelve tomorrow. sigh. how fast time flies.

i could still vividly remember back to the time she was just a baby. back to the time when she was just brought out into this world. nine years gap, you ask? yep, our gap was that big. so obviously we have very different tastes. but i know i somehow influenced her one way or another. in a good siblings influences kind of way lar, ahems. she grew up faster than i thought she should. her favourite music was from linkin park. who wasn't if you were born in 1988 and the in music was by LP and have a little sister to pour influence upon? well, i did, indirectly, that is. i don't even want to go into the fashion part. i think i robbed her of her childhood. haha kidding kidding. i didn't have internet connection growing up till i was, eleven? during her time, everything my time was becoming obsolete and so yeah, you get the point. i guess i was a huge role model for her, despite her refusal to admit it EVERYTIME =p

to my baby sister who likes to be called 'baby' or 'sayang' but denies it ALL THE TIME, whom people must hug instead of her doing the hugging, who reeefuuseesss to kiss her mom, dad, and SISTER (hah! *roll eyes*),

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!

YOU'RE TURNING 12!

I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!

i always thought about what was going to happen or how is it going to feel like when she was just born when i was only 9, and then thought about what going to happen to her, how is she going to be like by the time i'm 18 when i was 9, and now that i'm 21, i do know how it is like. i'm very proud of my sister, she collects more trophies in her entire 12 years of life than me in my 21 years of life!!!

wishing you good health and all the best this birthday, in upsr (sap sap sui only), in boys (kidding kidding, must start protecting you ady), SMILE ALWAYS (you look pretty when you do!), don't always muka masam okay next time you grow up looking like that baru tau (kidding KIDDING!), and i love you baby.

despite our hugeee gap, know that we didn't spend enough time with each other as we should, but know that you are always in my heart,like how torres is always in my heart oukayyy i should probably stop joking around HAHA. it's a pity i can't be back to celebrate with you this birthday, but nah, i made this post specially for YOU!!! see, i always think of you one =p

take care sis, you better brag to people about this! HAHA.

MUAXXX!!!

missing you always ;D

what happened so far

you see, the thing about having many things to blog about is not blogging about them. so many things happened, you go places, all kinds of interesting events popped up, and you're in the midst of having good times, sometimes you cry, while other times you jumped for joy. you get caught up in so many different kinds of things, and then time flew by so fast it's crazy so you just..couldn't be bothered to write about so many things passed.

anyhow, that's abit off the record. i'm here to talk about my first week in uni. of my third semester. so yeah.

today is munday. of the second week. but monday is not really mundane for me. well, i hope not anyway.

oh my god the most amazing thing just happpened i can't believe i even said that but yeah!!!

i'm not going to talk about it. i believe i should swear myself to secrecy. yes.

anyways, the first week, well, i thought i was going to die. seriously. but things turned around. for good. i know life is a rollercoaster but i shall enjoy this moment! muahaha!

so mr puad didnt want to give me back my batik artwork. so bad right. he said he wants to keep it and that it should be that way because it's kukum's property. he's going to frame it up in dewan chanselor or something. wahaha so cool but i want it back! i want to frame it up in my room! well, mom wants to. so mr puad told me this: "hey, make another one la. we can go factory together"

"err.."

"join batik competition will you?"

"err.."

"very easy one. six by six metres"

"awh? SIX?"

"so whaddya think?"

"i'll think about it"

"aha! okay. that's the way, girl!"

"err.. *crickets singing*"

i don't think he heard what i said lor. nevermind. he's a cool guy. we call him sifu, by the way. like the chinese sifu, that kind. gong!!! ehee.

i got funny fahmy as my macroeconomics lecturer. well, i call him funny fahmy cause his name is fahmy and he is sooo funny! in a cynical kind of way. i hope he stays this way. you could never tell much and all from the first encounter, can you?

and what else. i should be studying. not blogging and reading cnn news. HAH! what were you thinking, baby?

xoxoxo.

the black parade

today the world mourns the death of one talented king of pop, who was dubbed the "troubled genius" by cnn, and whose music dominated and took the world by storm. i'm not a fan, but i think after all he did to the entertainment industry, i believe he deserve a whole load of respect and tribute.

anyways, for those of you who haven't heard which i find it hard to believe since the news of his death took the world by storm, almost on the same scale as when the world witnessed the tsunami; he was a phenomenon, after all. yes i'm talking about none other than our favourite pop icon, michael jackson, the one and only king of pop, a musical genius.

every radio station was playing his music today. hitz, fly, era, you name it. even the saloon i went to today was playing his songs. probably some chinese station. my fm probably. and when i got home and turned on the television, every news channel was reporting about him. i've never heard so many michael jackson's songs and so much about him in my life.

i am so dissapointed with myself for starting to like his music and the jackson five's after he passed away. *slaps self*

speaking of saloon, i finally got my hair cut today. i'm so happy because alvin did a great job cutting them. i say great because cutting my hair, i believe, is no easy task. it's long and thick and way too smooth hence, it's so slippery. what good coincidence i have with him. i was searching for his name card before i stepped into hair impression because i remembered that he did a great job with my hair about um, six months ago. but i couldn'f find his card so i just told the lady boss, "you know what, anyone will do" and tadaa! alvin was the "anyone". and he remembers me! i couldn't recognised him anymore cause he got his hair cut as well. well, alvin's hair was long six months ago ;p

anyways alvin talked alot about movies with me and i couldn't take it anymore so i went like, "did you know michael jackson died today?" and he seemed stunned so i thought he was a big fan or something, like did i suddenly break a bad news to a diehard fan. haha.

but alvin said "nolah i'm just stunned, not in the newsapapers also".

"he just died this morning"

"oh"

and then he went on asking more questions.

and then he went on telling the rest of his hair impression colleagues that michael jackson died. hahaha so funny. i didn't mean the part about michael jackson passing away was funny, i meant the part about alvin telling his collegues about the news that was funny lol wtfish.

and then the not so good news: my semester II results came out today. blerhhh.

i am not liking my results!!!

shouldn't have check today stupidcavina but then you gotta know sooner or later erghh.

note to self:must work harder next sem or else i'll...i'll...

i know, i know, i already put in my 200 percent and mom and dad were really proud of me as always so...

but i'm still not liking my results!!!

i am so gonna be depressed tomorrow cause that's when the sadness really sinks in.

anyways, rest in peace yo, my man mj!

you will be truly missed for you have brought a great deal of change to the world through your music.

your passing was such a waste as you have definitely made such a huge positive impact on the citizens of the world.

lots of love.

xoxo

in loving memory of michael joseph jackson

1958-2009

oh noooo~

so kris allen won the american idol season 8. sheesh. so geram. erghhh. i have never personally followed the show this season due to being tied down to *coughs!* campus life-far away from home, no tivo (hah!), work, work, and work, okay it's basically just work now don't blame the distance and the inexistence of the square box, that's not true. i mean, the tivo part. i mean, duh, we don't have tivo obviously since when malaysia so progressive. we have televisions. astro. star world? THAT we have to go someone's house *coughs!*. or mamak. so yea.

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i am flummoxed.

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i am flustered.

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and rather flabbergasted, if i may add.

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not that i have a grudge against kris. now who am i to judge. it's just that i finally settle to root for adam lambert. i just thought he was far more deserving than kris. more versatile, though he may be a little off the drama. i'd thought he was a better performer during the finale, showed that he put in more effort unlike kris. just like simon cowell said after his second performance, kris was "a little too laidback for a night like this". no doubt kris allen has what it takes, that dark horse, who is no doubt cute but probably taken *coughs!*, and adam has had a series of stage performances background. drama school probbaly taught him alot so yea but may the better man wins, right?

anyways, the result came as a shock to me and i have no idea why. maybe it's because i kinda put alot of hope into adam being crowned the 8th american idol title but oh well, kris is cute anyways and adam is already famous he doesn't need to be crowned to add on to his already overflowing glory.

;DDD

anyhooo, i loved the performances tonight. *squels in delight* omyguddness nobody told me jason mraz was coming haha bah as if i was there. fergie! david cook! well, his presence is pretty predictable. condolences on his brother's death over cancer. hrmm who else. well, i saw katie holmes with cute baby suri last night in the show. during the duo's last performances. and then there's santana! that guy just appears after a long time of dissapearance from the showbiz. not that i'm very well updated about the showbiz. heheh. but anyhow they were a.w.e.s.o.m.e.!!! i mean the 15 finalists. fuh! they wow-ed me. i got blown away. goosebumps all over. totally. secretly wished i was there. but good enough that i watched it live ;DDD

it's one unbelievable night which left me shell-shocked. and a ring below my eyes. whatever it is, the show was worth waking up for, or rather, staying up for ;ppp

xoxo.

the thing about me is

...i do not have the dicipline to update my blog. and then it died. and i revive it back. which is the best thing. well to be fair, i absolutely do not have the time to update. at all. this is something which i have been harping on for as long as i can remember. ever since i started to know life and became busy. ever since, ever.

heh.

this short semester is finally over. i thank God for i have survive probably one of the craziest semesters i have to endure. this sem was assignments, assignments, assignments. pop quizzes. tests. labs. reports. field trips. ecetra ecetra. you name it, you know it. and then before i know it, it was finals all over again. and then, it's over.

my.

second.

semester.

as.

an.

undergraduate.

is.

finally.

over.

i cannot believe it.

not that this sem was any different from the last, but this sem is one hell of a short semester. packed. action packed. with loadsa fun, drama, and tears. and yet at the same time, bombastic craziness, laughter, and fun filled my time through this bunch of people called friends. and my brothers and sisters down the block.

and here i am now, at singapore for a debate tournament which i have been a little anticipating for. the smu hammers debate. i secretly cannot wait to debate.

staying at this dormitory style accomodation called footprints hostel with shan shan, chze lor, and poh leen, i am truly grateful for the superfast broadband they have here for my mobile is currently disabled. i now know that communication breakdown can truly affect somebody. and that it is not called a breakdown for nothing. muahaha.

0215 hours and i gotta sleep. have to be up in four hours. on another note, i'm actually dreading to debate like i always do before any tournament. then the fire lights up and boom! kidding kidding. so my mobile's dead. hrm. so...to mom, dad, sis, the big family, friends, brothers, and sisters down the block. don't worry! i'm pretty much alive!!!

more update soon. if i do not awesomely slack again.

xoxo.

ffo day

hello. apa khaber? this just in. how are you? ni hao ma? lol. in case any of you guys have forgotten me, i'm cavina and i'm back after a loong hiatus, ok make that looooooooooongggg (i swear i could have drag it longer but nope, i'm not gonna do it. and eh i have a damn solid reason ok. for my hiatus. *coughs*)

so anyways!

today

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DAYYYYYYY!!!!

well, it could have been yesterday.

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ffo stands for FINALS FINALLY OVER. this brings out a load of meaning to me because i was in a state of thinking that i could never get through this sem without breaking down (hello? my lecturer dumped four assignments on us prior to a week before the finals and three of them had to be summited before the start of finals and one had to be submitted before the 17th but what difference does that make right since my exam ends on the 20th so might as well get it done with right? lalala).

everything was looking really gloom and dark and black and grey and not good and basically everything associated with dark at that time. plus i had to spend some days in between for debate trainings and other important matters and oh so there goes my one whole day +++. so having no time at all, i had to resort to staying up really late (or early?) till the weee weee weee hours of the morning (read: no sleep at all) to finish up those assignments and batik drawings and stuff.

but!

thanks to the people here (awww you guys are just.. ;)) who never fail to motivate and restore faith in me that i will somehow manage to finish up all my arsesignments and still have time to do other fun stuff (haha yeah, right), like as in other important stuff that i could have done instead of spending all my time on arsesignments only like studying (ahems!), i finally pulled through and manage to get everything done in time. before time summore! this is not bragging, like i've rambled earlier i was really in a state of going into depression because of my workload. but thanks guys, for making me believe that nothing is actually impossible and helping me along the way (tsk tsk i swear i'm so touched i could have cried) and most importantly, making me and changing my perception that having faith is the most important thing in life.

seriously, i was going to break down a few times on the process of completing everything because thinking that most people from other courses have zero assignments left and i have extra workload (my sketches and stuff) made me really depressed but the funny fact is, when i finally completed them i had a thought that i was going to miss them (wtf!). especially sketching and painting which was really an ardious process and i had to be super meticulous than usual (not that i am but then..!).

and the funny texts that keeps coming in, boy, thanks guys you really do know how to make things brighter for someone. here lemme give you guys a sweeeettt ;p

so note to self: have faith no matter what. we could actually get through things during tough times and i had these bunch of guys to remind me that (awwww i love you guys i really do hahah). remind me next sem please! i'm guaranteed to go into a post/pre/whatever traumatic stress (maybe worse!) again!

finals was finally over yesterday at 4 p.m. and during my second last paper i swear my hand hurts so much from writing that i thought i might not be able to write for the next paper (choi! tai ka lai si) and when i was doing my last paper i swear my hand was gonna break by the time i got to the last question. everything was in essay format yesterday. so to total up there was 4 essays in the first well 4 times 2 we have 8 essay questions for the first paper and then we have 5 and 5 times 2 plus 1 maybe 2 i forgot so we have 12 essay questions in the second paper and that totalled up to 12 plus 8 owkay that's 20 essay questions altogether from my last two papers. my hand hurts. i bet everyone else in my course was in the same situation. and to write all of that within a given time frame well...go figure.

anyways, the fact of the truth is i cannot believe i actually got through this sem at all. i thought i was going to die halfway. can't believe that environmental science students are sooo busy, like 3/4 of what medic students do but of course, theirs is never ending work. damn i so respect them for that.

despite all the courseworks and debate trainings and exams, hrmm did i mention i manage to spare some time to tutor a certain someone in between all that summore. fuh! now that finals is over, i feel all weird again that i ain't doing something which i am always doing on a daily basis - studying 19 hours a day - and omygod is that a missing feeling i'm having now (omygodddd i'm crazy somebodyyyy please knock my head!!!)

so thanks guys, for all your motivation and faith-restoring process and pep talks despite you guys having to go through your own exam-stress as well - it really worked! i bet you guys out there are gonna scream out something like yer you only thanked your friends? what about your parents you ungrateful child lol wtf.

well, course, i couldn't have done it without my parents, mom even said something about how proud she was of what i've accomplised in debate (awwww..that's so sweet but but but i didn't even achieved anything yet =.=)

the downside of all the jubilation and excitement is that i'm currenly down with fever, flu, headache, and sorethroat. went back and sleep sleep and sleep after my last paper yesterday (ooh after checking some mid term results ;)) and woke up with a headache and flu and sorethroat. and now with fever but it already subsided since this morning =D

omygod this post is wordly. i shall wrap this up and go do something else ha ha ha. will be off to kk later with the guys ;) omygod this post is sooo wordly.

xoxo