powerful words

"everytime you forget who you are, remember who i am"

powerful words by someone very dear to me. i wished i could record every single word spoken to me to remind me about things. when i forget those words, i forget who i am and that feels awful.

i wanna remember your every inspirational words, every advice, every words of love. ah, these are the things i should always remember and keep in mind. not some useless garbage spoken by people who don't matter.

wake up, cavina! remember those words, every single advice, every single reminder, because they are the truest of all. but here i am, denying myself of those true words, being overtaken by useless thoughts. aah, evil bedevil, get off my mind!

"everytime you forget who you are, remember who we are"

i am so very grateful for every single thing that i have in my life. stupid evil thoughts just like to cloud my judgement, making me forget how blessed or fortunate i am.

baby steps, baby. baby steps and just do what's right.

<3

"peace i leave with you

my peace i give to you

not as the world gives do i give to you

let not your heart be troubled

neither let it be afraid"

John 14:26-27

comfort zone

hello there world. i have so much to tell you lately. but it's getting late and i am suppose to be working on my thesis. so laters, hahaha. i always do that, don't i? well, the joys of being a human. being able to escape from the realities of the world.

facing a bit of a dilemma of late. a good buddy told me its about time i get out from my comfort zone and approach people about it. it's definitely difficult, but it's the best and righteous thing to do. the importance of going all out for someone and not expecting anything in return is the right thing to do, he says. well said, i couldn't agree more. aah i am so being vague i just lost my chain of thoughts wtf.

sigh. growing up is a difficult thing to do. no, wait. growing up is easy. you just..grow. to face stuff as you grow up is difficult. i don't think i like being an adult when it comes to these things.

this is where i need to be in touch with my inner spirituality. apart from my family at home, i am truly blessed to have these few people away from home that are always there for me
spiritualy.

me and shan shan!

me and brendan dong dong

want to post more pics of the other cool people in my lives who have always helped me through spiritually and emotionally but heh it's getting late and i'm lazy. but you know who you are loves!
i heart all of you <3

xoxo

earthquake tragedy

cavina's heart goes out to the victims of the Haiti earthquake in Port-au-Prince :'(

my prayers goes out to all the victims: the victims' families, the survivors of this tragedy, and everyone who gave out a hand in trying to improve the situation in Port-au-Prince.

do stay strong while we continue to pray that God will continue to pour his blessings over
these unfortunate souls.

love peace joy hope,
xoxo.

spirituality haywired

four churches arson attacked in kayel.

total of eleven churches across malaysia pelted with molotov cocktails, stones, and paint.

now two Muslim prayer halls attacked. genius.

what next, people?

hyperventilating

today cavina woke up feeling very panicky ;(

piling workload is taking a toll on her.

all she can do is type awayyyy, breathe, and relax.

pray and have faith that everything will fall into place at the end of the day

;DDD

but right now, she's just hyperventilating ;x

piling workload

today's one of those days where i am utterly dissapointed at myself. at the same time, i thank God and my friends for bringing me up again. i now realise how strong the power of praying can actually be.

its getting late and i am getting exhausted. these days, i am so used to not sleeping that i don't feel the need to sleep anymore. i just go to bed at two plus in the morning and wake up two hours later. that's how my routine is this week. until today, i crashed. i had to sleep but i just couldn't. my head was throbbing with pain so badly since yesterday. and yet i still attend trainings like usual. i still go on with my usual routine which if any other people would choose, they would choose to let go. me, i just think i should do it out of dicipline. question is, how long would i be able to withstand before everything stands to fall apart. however, i do believe that i can juggle many, many things together. believed. until today. i know i deserved it. but at the same time, i thought i did my best. so yep, i need some balance in my life.

life on campus hasn't even been mundane. it's quite the opposite. hectic, yet fun at the same time. but exhausting. it tires you up like crazy. well, for me and people in the same boat as me that is.

now, how on earth am i suppose to juggle three midterms, two major quizzes, two tutorials, and four lab reports all due next week? with no mornings, afternoons, and evenings to spare?

oh God, help me.

i'm praying ;DDD