a very happy dilemma

oh.my.god.

i was suppose to blog about this last night after i got the news but i was too psyched i could barely contain my excitement. i was still staring at the computer screen after three hours.

i couldn't believe my eyes.

okay, fine. that was an understatement. i believe it. i just didn't have a good feeling about the appeal all along so that's why i find it hard to believe.

this is superdupercaligragilistiespiellidoucious (i don't care if i get the spelling wrong ;p) good, no great, no scratch that again, THIS is awesome news!!!

then i had to read 47 pages of this particular guide book online. mind you, 47 pages sounds long, but it is not.

i probably took only 45 minutes to read through the book, but it felt like an eternity.

i didn't even have time to spread the word.

though i know i need contact ht. fast. since she's there already. hmm i've got so many things that i need to ask her. so that i can weigh the pros and cons.

my mind was superclouded with questions. too many questions.

everything happened soooo fast i couldn't decide what to do first.

i only had two days two prepare myself. and there's so much that i need to prepare. too much, in fact.

it's like going to a foreign country in such a short notice.

how do you do that knowing very well for the fact that once you leave, you might never know when you are coming back?

what if you left something behind? heck, this place is further than hong kong. and i get homesick easily. that's one downside.

i know it's only sabah. but for me, leaving my family and friends here is not easy. even if its only for sabah. plus it's toooo fast to leave. i'm just not very prepared yet. okay, not prepared at all.

what could i possible do first? it was three something in the morning.

not much, really. except to weigh the pros and cons if i were to go there.

it seems ridiculous.

considering the fact that i've been wanting this so much ever since the day i appealed.

that would explain my uncontrollable tears the moment i found out. tears of joy.

almost every night i prayed and prayed and wished upon the star (rofl!) that i would get it.

i couldn't believe i did.

and now that i did got it, i am soooo confused. and sooo undecided. and superhappy at the same time. i really didn't know what to do.

then it hit me. if i've really wanted this so much, why did i have to think it through so much? well, it's the distance, and i don't have enough time to prepare myself physically and psychologically yet.

who would have thought that the mohe - ministry of higher education - or whoeverslashwhatever in-charge would only give us two days from the day we got our appeal to prepare and then straightaway fly to sabah to register the next day? sheesh. crazy. such a short notice.

the thing is i have the privilege of having to choose between a few choices, which i am really grateful for. how many people have the privilege to do that?

crossroads + crossroads = dilemma.

so much to do, so little time. it felt quite wrong leaving in a rush like that.

i have so many unfinished business.

oh.my.god.

okay, first, i have to decide. can somebody please decide for me??? nah. nobody can. just ignore that please.

arghhh! i have to decide!!! i am going crazy, my head could explode anytime.

then, i have to get plane tickets-bookings are already full on thursday, which means i have to leave a day earlier (omg!).

then, i have to pack - not that i have the right clothes required to do that anyway. ha ha! found out that i need three formals (or was it four?), three semi-formals, shoes, shoes, and shoes. no, just kidding about the shoe part. nooooo-i need shoes. oh. don't even try to mention shopping now. is it not obvious enough that time is of the essence here?

then, mum and dad would have to take a three-day-leave in such a short notice.

then, medical checkup. crazy. no time. although that's not necessary to do that now.

then, passport photos. my documents. blablablayadayadayada you know the drill.

and then, so, so, so much more.

sigh. too little time.

but oh well. for drama sake *hehe*

ladies and gentleman, boys and girls,

I GOT THE SABAH UNI!!!

TO DO ENVIRONMENTAL SCIENCE!!!

OHMYGAWDOHMYGAWDOHMYGAWDOHMYGAWDOHMYGAWDOHMYGAWD!!!!!!!!!

I AM SOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPPYYYYYYYY!!!

now what am i going to do???