psyched

wow i must be the most hardworking person to blog at 3:44 am lol.

i think i'm staying up just so i don't miss my flight again T________T

this is not nais at all even though i know that there's gonna be about six people who are going to give me morning calls in approximately 14 minutes.

hrmm. this is not good they'll probably scream at me if they found out i hadn't slept at all T____T

but it's okay because this is all for a good cause even if i end up with big bulging eyebags later i can always sleep in the plane wtf.

well i hope i can sleep in the plane and not stay up in excitement LOL.

to be honest, i'm staying up to listen to justin's bieber's one time cause it's just so nais! i don't know what's all the fuss about people liking him too much and people totally hating him. so extreme one! you can either like his songs or like him choose one don't hate both! i only like one song from him anyways see how fair a person i am LOL.

anyways this is how i look like when i listen to one time.

see, itz with ze love, <3

piling workload

today's one of those days where i am utterly dissapointed at myself. at the same time, i thank God and my friends for bringing me up again. i now realise how strong the power of praying can actually be.

its getting late and i am getting exhausted. these days, i am so used to not sleeping that i don't feel the need to sleep anymore. i just go to bed at two plus in the morning and wake up two hours later. that's how my routine is this week. until today, i crashed. i had to sleep but i just couldn't. my head was throbbing with pain so badly since yesterday. and yet i still attend trainings like usual. i still go on with my usual routine which if any other people would choose, they would choose to let go. me, i just think i should do it out of dicipline. question is, how long would i be able to withstand before everything stands to fall apart. however, i do believe that i can juggle many, many things together. believed. until today. i know i deserved it. but at the same time, i thought i did my best. so yep, i need some balance in my life.

life on campus hasn't even been mundane. it's quite the opposite. hectic, yet fun at the same time. but exhausting. it tires you up like crazy. well, for me and people in the same boat as me that is.

now, how on earth am i suppose to juggle three midterms, two major quizzes, two tutorials, and four lab reports all due next week? with no mornings, afternoons, and evenings to spare?

oh God, help me.

i'm praying ;DDD

what happened so far

you see, the thing about having many things to blog about is not blogging about them. so many things happened, you go places, all kinds of interesting events popped up, and you're in the midst of having good times, sometimes you cry, while other times you jumped for joy. you get caught up in so many different kinds of things, and then time flew by so fast it's crazy so you just..couldn't be bothered to write about so many things passed.

anyhow, that's abit off the record. i'm here to talk about my first week in uni. of my third semester. so yeah.

today is munday. of the second week. but monday is not really mundane for me. well, i hope not anyway.

oh my god the most amazing thing just happpened i can't believe i even said that but yeah!!!

i'm not going to talk about it. i believe i should swear myself to secrecy. yes.

anyways, the first week, well, i thought i was going to die. seriously. but things turned around. for good. i know life is a rollercoaster but i shall enjoy this moment! muahaha!

so mr puad didnt want to give me back my batik artwork. so bad right. he said he wants to keep it and that it should be that way because it's kukum's property. he's going to frame it up in dewan chanselor or something. wahaha so cool but i want it back! i want to frame it up in my room! well, mom wants to. so mr puad told me this: "hey, make another one la. we can go factory together"

"err.."

"join batik competition will you?"

"err.."

"very easy one. six by six metres"

"awh? SIX?"

"so whaddya think?"

"i'll think about it"

"aha! okay. that's the way, girl!"

"err.. *crickets singing*"

i don't think he heard what i said lor. nevermind. he's a cool guy. we call him sifu, by the way. like the chinese sifu, that kind. gong!!! ehee.

i got funny fahmy as my macroeconomics lecturer. well, i call him funny fahmy cause his name is fahmy and he is sooo funny! in a cynical kind of way. i hope he stays this way. you could never tell much and all from the first encounter, can you?

and what else. i should be studying. not blogging and reading cnn news. HAH! what were you thinking, baby?

xoxoxo.

she will not

let this blog die.

and she will adhere (lol wt?) to the wants (this sounds wrooongg) and requests of people who are waiting patiently for this blog to be updated but never does and in the end gave up reading (what?!)

she will update.

soon.

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

WHO AM I KIDDING.HEREEE???

nola i will. seriously. no wait i won't. yes i will no i won't okay stop doing that!!!

OHMYGOSH ACTUALLY I HAVE SOOOO MUCH TO UPDATE!!!

maybe that's why i got lazy -____-

tell me why do i procrastinate so much, even if it comes to simple things such as updating about my life.

"is there a dire need to update lol wt"

*ward off comments*

geez.

ffo day

hello. apa khaber? this just in. how are you? ni hao ma? lol. in case any of you guys have forgotten me, i'm cavina and i'm back after a loong hiatus, ok make that looooooooooongggg (i swear i could have drag it longer but nope, i'm not gonna do it. and eh i have a damn solid reason ok. for my hiatus. *coughs*)

so anyways!

today

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DAYYYYYYY!!!!

well, it could have been yesterday.

;D

ffo stands for FINALS FINALLY OVER. this brings out a load of meaning to me because i was in a state of thinking that i could never get through this sem without breaking down (hello? my lecturer dumped four assignments on us prior to a week before the finals and three of them had to be summited before the start of finals and one had to be submitted before the 17th but what difference does that make right since my exam ends on the 20th so might as well get it done with right? lalala).

everything was looking really gloom and dark and black and grey and not good and basically everything associated with dark at that time. plus i had to spend some days in between for debate trainings and other important matters and oh so there goes my one whole day +++. so having no time at all, i had to resort to staying up really late (or early?) till the weee weee weee hours of the morning (read: no sleep at all) to finish up those assignments and batik drawings and stuff.

but!

thanks to the people here (awww you guys are just.. ;)) who never fail to motivate and restore faith in me that i will somehow manage to finish up all my arsesignments and still have time to do other fun stuff (haha yeah, right), like as in other important stuff that i could have done instead of spending all my time on arsesignments only like studying (ahems!), i finally pulled through and manage to get everything done in time. before time summore! this is not bragging, like i've rambled earlier i was really in a state of going into depression because of my workload. but thanks guys, for making me believe that nothing is actually impossible and helping me along the way (tsk tsk i swear i'm so touched i could have cried) and most importantly, making me and changing my perception that having faith is the most important thing in life.

seriously, i was going to break down a few times on the process of completing everything because thinking that most people from other courses have zero assignments left and i have extra workload (my sketches and stuff) made me really depressed but the funny fact is, when i finally completed them i had a thought that i was going to miss them (wtf!). especially sketching and painting which was really an ardious process and i had to be super meticulous than usual (not that i am but then..!).

and the funny texts that keeps coming in, boy, thanks guys you really do know how to make things brighter for someone. here lemme give you guys a sweeeettt ;p

so note to self: have faith no matter what. we could actually get through things during tough times and i had these bunch of guys to remind me that (awwww i love you guys i really do hahah). remind me next sem please! i'm guaranteed to go into a post/pre/whatever traumatic stress (maybe worse!) again!

finals was finally over yesterday at 4 p.m. and during my second last paper i swear my hand hurts so much from writing that i thought i might not be able to write for the next paper (choi! tai ka lai si) and when i was doing my last paper i swear my hand was gonna break by the time i got to the last question. everything was in essay format yesterday. so to total up there was 4 essays in the first well 4 times 2 we have 8 essay questions for the first paper and then we have 5 and 5 times 2 plus 1 maybe 2 i forgot so we have 12 essay questions in the second paper and that totalled up to 12 plus 8 owkay that's 20 essay questions altogether from my last two papers. my hand hurts. i bet everyone else in my course was in the same situation. and to write all of that within a given time frame well...go figure.

anyways, the fact of the truth is i cannot believe i actually got through this sem at all. i thought i was going to die halfway. can't believe that environmental science students are sooo busy, like 3/4 of what medic students do but of course, theirs is never ending work. damn i so respect them for that.

despite all the courseworks and debate trainings and exams, hrmm did i mention i manage to spare some time to tutor a certain someone in between all that summore. fuh! now that finals is over, i feel all weird again that i ain't doing something which i am always doing on a daily basis - studying 19 hours a day - and omygod is that a missing feeling i'm having now (omygodddd i'm crazy somebodyyyy please knock my head!!!)

so thanks guys, for all your motivation and faith-restoring process and pep talks despite you guys having to go through your own exam-stress as well - it really worked! i bet you guys out there are gonna scream out something like yer you only thanked your friends? what about your parents you ungrateful child lol wtf.

well, course, i couldn't have done it without my parents, mom even said something about how proud she was of what i've accomplised in debate (awwww..that's so sweet but but but i didn't even achieved anything yet =.=)

the downside of all the jubilation and excitement is that i'm currenly down with fever, flu, headache, and sorethroat. went back and sleep sleep and sleep after my last paper yesterday (ooh after checking some mid term results ;)) and woke up with a headache and flu and sorethroat. and now with fever but it already subsided since this morning =D

omygod this post is wordly. i shall wrap this up and go do something else ha ha ha. will be off to kk later with the guys ;) omygod this post is sooo wordly.

xoxo

uitm friendlies

here i comeee~!

not.

i'm kinda dreading you so to speak.

because!

i don't know what to expect really.

actually i never knew what to expect in all debate tournaments. haha!

dum dum dee da da dum.

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harh har.

uitm frendlies is another sort of friendly debate competition that i will be going to.

later today. at two in the afternoon.

oh my god.

i think there's something wrong with me because i don't feel anything. i mean, i do, but its nothing serious.

harh har who am i kidding.

i am now in the library. with yvonne. blogging. no, i'm blogging, she's not =D

yeah, first time blogging in the library. woohoo. lol.

i'm suppose to be doing whatever that i am suppose to be doing in the library, like say, erm studying my metafile (uh, i mean matterfile) - its a file with all our debate notes, etc etc ;p, or at least working on my batik sketches that i have been putting on hold for such a looong time. woohoo talking about procrastination. i'm such an expert in it ;p

no, i was just exxagerating. i'm really not-hey-i'm suppose to be talking about uitm friendlies. what is the meaning of this? lol. sounds familiar?

so in four hours we'll be heading off to uitm sabah which is near ip, the other ums residential college, debating our hearts out till 10 p.m. tonight. the schedule's really tight, though. geez, they squeezed everything in seven hours. go figure.

ooh i hope i can do well later. a senior is in my team and i'm kind of...intimidated by her.

nola nola. joking JOKING.

sheesh.

the thing is i have loads to write but i'm really being disturbed by the fact that i have to go study my metafile now or at least study something. oh for god's sake at least watch the tournament videos you know.

the seniors told us that uitm is not bad, they like to use all the bombastic words in the beginning of their speech and they have thick matterfiles filled with notes from debatabase. but there's noneed to feel intimidated or anything.

most importantly, don't panic, breathe, and...think! fast!

*deep breaths*

so that's about it for now. a little geist for you to digest.

xoxo.

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oh, and thank you, peter, for the espirit umbrella. it's very pretty. and its pink! ;)

and uh, i don't know what else.

i'll tell you people what happened to my ums umbrella next time. or if i forget about it then i'll probably talk about it next year or something.

;p

p/s: oh wow yvonne just decided that she's going to start a blog now. that was umm...fast. it's not me! i didn't influence her! really one. ;p